Life taking over!

Wow, I am again so sorry I have not been writing! So much has been going on, with the holidays and such. SO SORRY! Here is an update...

I signed up for classes at OTC and will be starting in January
I am still loosing weight, I am up to loosing 47 pounds! My current weight is 288!!
I met a wonderful guy named Tim who has been loosing also. He has been helping me with this journey and making sure I dont fall off the bandwagon!

I guess it just sounded like so much has been going on. I guess just work, family, being healthy, and getting back in school. I have been so happy recently and it feels awesome! I can enjoy life and I feel great.

My sister Traci is expecting her baby girl Julie is just about 8 days now, unless she goes into labor. I actually get Christmas Eve and day off this year which will be awesome.

I didnt make it to the gym today but I did do 30mins on Wii Fit which was so much fun!! I am going to start my routine again tomorrow and set my alarm and get up go to the gym. I am making myself go! My goal is to loose 10lbs a month. I am going to Colorado to see my best friend Miranda in August and I want to be 80lbs less by then. I can do it! With that 80lbs plus the weight I already lost that is 127 pound lost since she saw me last! I dont think it is unreal. I can do it!! Anyway I am hitting the sack! Goodnight!! I will post pics soon!

Okay...I am back

....Okay...okay...I am promising myself that I will still continue you for my journey. I can do this, and I will do this. I know I havent blogged in about 2 weeks and I am sorry. My life has been crazy! Meeting new people and friends, work, trying to get into school, its been nuts!

Anyway, I am about to head to the gym, but before I left I weighed myself (due to finances I quit WW meetings) and I weighed 298.4! I am not offically in the 200's and I will never go back! and I have lost 36lbs! WooHoo go me!!

Okay, off to the gym I go!!

Flab-u-lous

Well Well Well. Thats all I can say. Life has taken a turn and I cant seem to get back on my general routine. I cant seem to track my food, get to the gym, ect. I eat what I want when I want, and I just cant stop. Could it be my new relationship? Stress? Work? Holidays? All of it put together? I need to figure out what it is. I will succeed this and I need to stop this now. I need to start getting to the gym and eating right. I HAVE TO DO THIS! Its almost LIFE or DEATH! Its KIDS or NO KIDS! Its FUTURE or NO FUTURE! UGH!!!

Okay, I am off my high horse. I went to my WI yesterday even though I didnt have a good week and I ended up losing 2lbs. not exactly how but I did. I am open to losing 33lbs total. That is amazing! I know I can do this. I just need to get back to the gym and get my routine back. I am doing this for me. I love this new me. I feel sexy and happy.

I promise to myself this week will be better. I will start tracking and `working out. I need to. I need to go back to the way it was. <3 I can do this!

Monday Weigh In

Well I lost .6 today! I was for sure I was going to see a gain! I am very much pleased with that. I had a decentt day for being a monday. Something made me feel soo good about myself. This hasnt happened in a very long time. I went to auto zone before my WW meeting because my check engine light was on. So I walked in and a young cute guy asked me what I needed so I told him and he said
"Are your keys in the car?"
Me: "Umm...No."
Auto Zone Guy: "Is your doors unlocked?"
Me: "lol...no."
Auto Zone Guy: "Man your gonne make me work today."
Me: "Well you are at work so you have to work for your money."
Auto Zone Guy: "Very true."
As he takes my keys opens my car door to do the test he puts my keys in the engination and my raido came on.
Auto Zone Guy: "Tayloe Swift fan?"
Me: "Im a country fan, that is just the radio."
Auto Zone Guy: "Oh, Who is your favorite country band?"
Me: "Dont really have one just country in general."
We start talking about country music and he asks me if I have ever heard of Levi Lowery, which I hadn't and he told me I needed to look him up because I would probably like him. I told him I would and he said actually I have a burnt cd of his I can just give to you. I was like okay sounds great. He goes over with me why my check engine light was on and then gives me 2 busniess cards...one was of a place to have my car looked out at and one of Levi Lowery. As I was walking out he asked me for my name and number. So I gave it to him. :-)

I was so surprised that someone would even first flirt with me like that and then ask me for my name and number. Just crazy! It made my day. I cant get over it!! I wasnt even dolled up or anything, I had scrubs on, no make up and my hair pulled back in a messy bun. Just crazy! I love they way I am looking! Happy Monday!

Trip to Columbia

Jennifer and I took a trip to Columbia this weekend. We got here around 2pm Saturday and went to a pumpkin patch, chuck e cheeses, and then I went to my moms. It was hard...there was pizza at chuck e cheeses and soda, popcorn at the pumpkin patch and at my moms she made apple crisp. UGH! We did do A LOT of walking at the pumpkin patch, up and down hills chasing the kids around and such. I had pizza, diet soda a handful of popcorn and a serving of apple crisp. I feel so bad, I weigh in tomorrow. Its going to be bad, I shouldnt have any of that. I am going to see it at the scale tomorrow. BUT the pizza was amazing, the apple crisp was warm and delish. Maybe it was worth every calorie! :-) Today is a new day!

"Its Friday Friday Friday...

...Gotta get down on Friday. Everybody’s lookin’ forward to the weekend, weekend. Friday, Friday"
Yes that is the Rebecca Black Friday song! :-) When I listen it to I just have to think about my CO trip to Miranda and Jaynes wedding last month. Marylee Marisa and I listen it to the whole way there. Oh great times great times! Well...I went and worked out this morning. It went well. I didnt get to go yesterday I was having some car troubles. Since I had the session with my personal trainer I feel a lot better about using the weights to make sure I am using them correctly. Usually I dont even use the weights because I didnt want everyone to look at me and everything. Now I dont care, we are all there for the same reason to get healthy, stay healthy, maintain physical activity, ect. I know will lay on the floor and do cruches and sit ups and I feel good about it. I even did almost the whole Week 1 Day 1 or C25k today. It was tough and I felt like my heart was going to come out of my chest so I chose to stop bu I did get through half of the 20 min running/walking  workout which is awesome.

Songs are really my inspiration right now. I get stressed out and upset sometimes and I try not to resort back to my old habits like eating junk foods and candy but sometimes its so hard not to. I try to get away from food all together and go to my "happy place". Music, scrapbooking and now the gym.

Go longer, you can last more rounds
Push harder, your almost there now
So go lover, make mama proud
And when we’re done, I don’t wanna feel my legs
And when we’re done

But you can’t stop there
Music still playin’ in the background
And you’re almost there
You can do it, I believe in you baby
So close from here
Baby I’mma be your motivation

"Don’t limit yourself. Many people limit themselves to what they think they can do. You can go as far as your mind lets you. What you believe, remember, you can achieve."
-- Mary Kay Ash

No Pain No Game

Today I had my first session with my personal trainer. It will very well, better than expected. I am of course sore and we connected it seems like which is amazing. I didnt feel like I couldnt tell her if it was hurting or I didnt like that kind of work out. She very much in deed did push me. I did floor excercises, machines, using balls, stretched ect. Several times while using a machine she made me stop to increase the weight amount because she said I looked like it to easy...I wasnt giving her my funny its hurting face. My muscles are feeling it now. It was very much worth loosing an hour of sleeping in. :-) She wants me to go back in 2 weeks to make sure I still feel comfortable with the excerses and then maybe change some things up a bit. She is amazing nice and knows what she is talking about. She weighed me took my BP and my body fat %. My BP was great 101/80 (bottom number is a little high though but good for me), my weight was amazing (yes I did just say my WEIGHT IS AMAZING) it was 296!!! At the gym I am in the 200's...I hope my WI at WW is just as good, and my BF % was 46.6 which is typical. But overall it went great. Today was my 3rd day in a row to work out, and I am going again tomorrow to meet a friend there, then friday I am sure I will end up going. This weekend I am goint out of town to COMO and taking my nieces to see Disney Live, I only hope I can stay on track and not eat everything I see. I am so very happy with myself. I am a rockstar! My muscles are hurting but I will okay. I am starting to love the gym once again. Never look back because everything is right in front of you.