Leaves are falling..

...and so is my weight!! I know I havent written in a few days, ya know how life can be sometimes. I havent had a very good 2 days. I was eating pretty much what I wanted to eat but I was still aware of what I wa putting in my mouth...that is still okay right? LOL! Today has been good so far, got up went to the gym went to walmart ha subway for lunch and now I about to get ready for work. That is helpful though, my job is pretty active and physical. Im a CNA I lift turn and take care of residents. Most of the day I am sweating so I know I am burning calories which is a plus.

So I am thinking of getting a personal trainer, I think I need some sort of support when it comes to the gym. I can get to the gym but when I start working out I get discouraged. I see skinner people there that I know look better on a treadmil then I do. So I am thinking it is time to get one, someone who can push me at the gym who knows I can do it also. I really wish I can have Bob from the biggest looser here and be my trainer!! That would be amazing.

I need to get back the swing of things. I need to start counting points and tracking how I used to do. I am paying for WW now so I need to use ALL my tools I have right in front of me. I know I can do this, I want it so bad. I want to be healthy so I can have kids of my own and to play with them and be there for my family. I need to do this...its life or death. My blood pressure is high, Im at risk for a lot of different health issues down the road. Im young, and I have a long life ahead of me. I need to do this now, not in a few years not when Im 40 but NOW!

I need something to look forward to, to train for, a goal that isnt so far away then my goal weight. I am thinking of a 5K. Idk which one to do or how long to give myself to train for it. I have a lot to think about in general, but now its time to think about getting ready for work..well I guess not think but to do. Ugh! lol Happy weekend everyone!


P.S.
I only have 6 more pounds until I am forever out of the 300's!!!! I hope I get there by Monday!!